Tuesday, October 5, 2010

My First Bible Study!

Well, I've joined my first Bible Study with a great group of ladies that I'm looking forward to getting to know even better. After over a year of being invited, I finally felt that I could actually focus on a bible study. So... here we go.

If you've read my "finding church" posts, you know that this is a difficult area for me. That being said, I want to learn and find for myself.

Week 1 (last week) -- I was able to stay at bible study for 15 minutes. It was an insane evening of schedules. I persevered and was glad to make it. As I began my homework for the week I was completely overwhelmed.
  • What am I doing?
  • I don't belong here?
  • I don't even know what they are talking about/referencing/
  • You want me to pray?
  • My bible... it's burried on my shelf... haven't opened it since college.
  • I should quit... this isn't me.
  • I can't do this?
  • I didn't even know that was the name of a book in the bible?
The thoughts and panicked swarmed. I finally decided that I would get "something" out of this bible study. It may not be an epiphany, but I will learn. As I was driving one afternoon, I realized that it felt as though I was reading a foreign language. And then I had even more compassion for my daughter... who is struggling with learning to read. I see her frustration and I feel for her... it's a foreign language to her.

Week 2 -- Group
Cautiously I told the group about my feelings of feeling overwhelmed and I shared my feelings of it being like reading a foreign language. The women were great and even agreed that it felt difficult to them as well. I felt better. I will keep plugging along.

The quote I pulled out of the dvd and that I will hold onto is this...

Are you looking for religion or a relationship [with God]?

The answer for me was so clear... I'm looking for a relationship.


Anonymous said...

I just wrote this really great amazing comment - insightful and heartfelt....and then Blogger ate my words.

So I will just have to say I am impressed. I'm still have 1/2 a foot in the door and am unsure of walking in.

The Millers said...

That's what it's all about. Relationship.
GO GIRL!!! He's calling your name!

Mama Voss said...


Karmyn... I bet it was amazing.

Sarah... you are so full of Him.